Happy Holiday

So the holidays are here and everyone is in the spirit of Christmas, or so one would think.

I’m in Malta, and adapting the holiday spirit is pretty much impossible when there is 15-20 degrees outside during the days, and the days when the weather is bad there is 13-15 degrees and rain.

So no matter how many Christmas lights they place around the island there will still not be the correct setting for a true Christmas. And since I’ll be working on the 24^th (the day we celebrate in Sweden) and the 25^th (when they celebrate in Malta) it does not matter in the same way.

This is now the 2^nd year in a row that I will be in Malta during Christmas and New Years and now that my brother has 2 sons I really feel that I want to be a part of next years Christmas, so unless I am in the States during that time I will make sure to be home in Sweden to take part and celebrate with the family, or at least be there to give the kinds some gifts, it is after all a time for the children.

For it to be a “real” Christmas I feel that I need the snow, and even though I would be pissed as hell at this point over all the snow if I were in Sweden I still feel like I miss the feel and sight of some white landscape with some lights during the evenings darkness.

At least I had a quick skype call with the family so I could wish them all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, and always nice to see the nephews for a bit, and Viggo told me the 25^th is his birthday and asked when I was coming home, which of course struck an emotional cold in this otherwise so cold body, and we’ll see how the future looks and if there is any flights suitable to book and go back for a bit.

I will spend my time at the office during the nights the coming 2 weeks, which in a way is not something I feel is bad either, since I do not have a staking deal set up (even though I got an interesting offer in the week) I will just be playing smaller 45man sit n goes when I’m off from work, but I still want to get back to the MTT grind, and if I’ll get the deal set up I’ll probably pick up some small pieces here and there and set up a real grinding station so to keep the max focus running all session long.

I guess a lot of people is looking to set goals and resolutions for the year 2013, but I have never really been a person that does that. 

I have always had 1 set resolution and that is that I should have a happier, more fun year than the last, and I have to admit to myself that this has not been the case the last 2 years, of course this is all my own fault, and something I need to correct for the coming year.

There might be a few other goals that I am also thinking about setting up, and I will post them as soon as I have decided what they are, the only problem is that I am not a person that feel “bad” if I am not fulfilling any of the goals, I am not the person that feel like “I WILL DO THIS”, and have never been, I have always taken things the way they are and that’s it, but I guess that is due to the fact that I’ve not taken myself that serious overall.

Too many people take themselves way to seriously and feel they have to do certain things because it is expected of them and so on, I mean who the fuck would tell you what to do?

Think about yourself and your family first, and if you do not have time for anything else then do not even bother what anyone else think, and never ever feel the pressure to “have to” do something.

I will try and finish this shift off and the night has been long and boring as hell, glad I had Adam Carolla on the mp3 to keep me through the night, and I also railed -G- for a bit on his grind through skype, which is always fun.

We’ll see how the future looks and even though I have nothing to write about I will try and update at least once in a while, 1 month without a post is WAY to shitty, but I doubt there is anyone reading here anymore, I guess the few of you that read my blog will be reading the Swedish one.

If I come up with any resolutions for 2013 I will post them for you, so we all can break them together for moral support.

Take care and happy holidays people !

/Jinxen

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Motivation ?

There is a lot of stuff that I wish I could do here in life, and not stuff like being the fastest man, or beat Tyson in his prime or such goals that is just not possible.

But for example, take this with training and working out and getting in shape for example.

I want to be a more fit guy than I am (which is not that hard), but I have so fucking hard to find a motivation that sticks. 

For example today I was at the gym before work because I felt like it, so I went there and lifted some weights and ended with peddling the bike for 20 minutes and managed to run it up to 9.38km at least.

During the cycling I listened to a motivational speech that you can find below, but I have ripped the sound and imported it to my mp3 player to try and motivate me a bit more the few times I actually do anything.

Some annoying sound in the beginning, but then it gets good. 

And yes I felt very motivated and all that, but once tomorrow morning come I will once again feel the same as most days, that I just do not have the energy or the motivation to actually get my fat ass going to do anything, and along with this is the fact that I do not feel it being a fun time while at the gym, as I know there are people that do (unless they all lie).

So then the question remains, what to do ?

I am a bit scared to say this, but I guess “nothing” is the answer that often comes to mind, mostly because I feel as there is not many years left here in life anyway where you can actually do anything even if you are fit, so why spend time and money on something that is not an enjoyment for you ?

Some people say “but what if you get sick?” or “you can die if you do not get I shape”, but regarding the last of those 2 I have no fear of dying, this will come no matter what you do.

The first is a bit of a concern though, I admit that, because I do not want to become a drooler that can not take care of himself, if that day come I really hope that I have nice friends that will end it for me haha.

When it comes to motivation, one of the biggest obstacles that I feel that is holding me back is that I am a realistic person in that instance that I know that for me to get in acceptable shape there would be a couple of years of hard work and probably a big change in diet. 

And probably also for something that I would not even like to eat, which is the entire thing with food, that it is supposed to be an enjoyment to sit down and having something to eat, not just something to stuff your belly with in order to keep functioning.

One of those hypothetical question that you ask each other from time to time is :
“If you could take 1 pill everyday and this would fill the nutritional needs you have and you would not feel hungry, would you take it?”

Some days I feel I would take it gladly since these are the days where you have nothing to eat and if you are gonna eat out you know all the places and you are a bit fed  up.

Other days I would never take such a thing, because I would never be able to give up pizza, kebab, chicken, beef and such stuff, I really love food way too much.

Well, I just put this together since there was a calm period here at work for the moment, I will try and post a bit more often for you few that still check me once in a while.

Tomorrow 4 friends from Sweden is coming down so I will try to post pictures and some stories perhaps.

Take care.

Jinxen

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Time filler

Malta, yeah I think it’s all good for now. 

I am getting more and more used to work and that in itself makes it easier to do since I feel I do not have to ask for as much. 

I always thought that I would work with something regarding poker if I started working in the e-gaming industry since I have been in this area for almost 10 years now, both as a player and as an affiliate. 

But for now I will do my work as good as I can and if something opens up within poker I might apply, but how knows what will happen in the future.

I know a few things for sure at this point, stuff like me being too heavy and lazy, that I will play Battle of Malta (and I feel like a win should be in just the right time) and that I have taken days off for BoM and for the Swedish Championship the following week, which I am looking forward to since 4-5 friends is coming down during these 2 events.

I will try and post as much pictures and info about the two weeks from 22^nd of Nov up until 2^nd of Dec and keep you up to what is happening, and if anyone is winning any events.

I really feel I have to write a different blog, so the next blog will be one of two things, either a more in depth blog about how my thoughts go about certain things, or a very simple no brainer blog about nothing at all (like this).

Btw, Giants schedule does NOT look promising for securing a playoff spot. 

Green Bay Packers, @ Washington Redskins, New Orleans Saints, @ Atlanta Falcons, @ Baltimore Ravens, Philadelphia Eagles 

And having the Cowboys run past would be the worst, cause then Fjuno will start talking shit again, which we do not like haha.

/Jinxen

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Not sleepy at all

Working only nights makes you adapt to a certain schedule and when you do not get to sleep from 7am to 1pm or 2pm this will make you extremely tired while working the next day.

So when I first got one “night” of bad sleep after work I was firmly decided to be very rested until the next shift, sadly enough my shitfaced flatmate was having his solo party in the flat again and this making him do enough sounds for me not to fall asleep until around 8am, and when the phone range at 9:14 and this was him again saying that they were on a boat on the way to Gozo I was not happy to say the least.

Strange enough I could not fall back asleep, so I stayed awake since the maid was coming by around 1pm, so when she arrived me and Fjuno went to McCaffé and took some breakfast (not the healthy choice) as seen on the picture below.

After that we went to Scotts Supermarket, which is not cheap I noticed, and then past Subway before going back home. Around 6pm I could finally try and get some sleep before work, but NOOOO then the drilling began, and yes, this is Fjunos fault.
There has been NO construction noises at all until he arrived, and now there is power tools and hammers every fucking hour of the day.

So Thursday night I am off from work and they way things had gone I decided to stay home and skip the tournament at the casino and instead get a whole lot of fucking sleep.

Friday is still planned to be a night spent at the casino playing the regular €110 tournament if they still run this due to the Israeli Poker Championship being this weekend. 

If I had enough money I would sit at the cash games every available hour this week since the value is sooo great with the degenerate Israelis here to gamble.

I must say that Israeli people get a lot of crap, but the ones that I have met I must say have been really nice, and Israel is still one of those places I would like to visit someday. 

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Travel?

One you have nothing at all to do, or when you just relax and drift away and your mind take a stroll, where do you see yourself and where do you feel happy?

For certain people this might be at home in the sofa with their loved ones, for some it’s out running or at the gym, for some it might be out on a hike in the wilderness or out hunting or fishing.

For me there are 2 places, one is a place like Bora Bora, not saying Bora Bora exactly but I can see myself in one of those overwater bungalows just laying on a sunbed relaxing and reading books and should I need a massage or refill my drink all I have to do is clap my hands or reach for the closest seashell and blow a little tune. 

I could really see myself there, but since I doubt a good internet would be available I would max out after a month and then need to go to a more civil place. 

And of course I would not go there at all if there is no good facility when it comes do depositing a duce, since I am NOT the kind of person that likes to crap in a hole in the ground and swat flies while trying to avoid splashes, no way, there I have a strict policy of staying out of the way. 

I know a lof of you that know me would say “come on, you do not even like the heat dude”, which is true in a way. 

I do not like the heat when I have to do stuff, like move…which I would not plan to do if I was in such a place, even I could consider becoming one of those turds that just bask in the sun all day and then on the evening you go and eat some proper stake and feel like a king. 

  

…. Yeah that would work for me…. 

The other place is USA, Las Vegas in particular and having the option to go to L.A. or San Fran or such places when having the energy for it, hanging there and having all the US sports on good air times, and having the chance to enjoy all of Vegas is nothing but a perfect fit…if you can afford it. 

And when thinking about it I cannot stop to think about the milkshakes at Peggy Sue’s Diner on the way from Vegas to Los Angeles, they were awesome to say the last, and you got enough to keep you full until entering L.A. 

And being in the states is good for the times when you need new shoes, I hate trying to find shoes in Sweden, or even worse, in Malta, but in Vegas you just go to one of the outlet shops and splash $100 bucks and you have yourself 3 pair of new sneakers, it’s great to say the least.

 

So, how the fuck should I manage to get myself to either of these places ? 

I guess the solution would be to keep on working and try to play as much poker as possible on my free time in order to build enough capital to go, or win the lottery, which is tough since I do not enter.

Anyway the fact that only work is not enough to build capital is clear and I need to put down even more time in improving my game so I can have something to look forward to, and now that Fulltilt is up and running (well, running from Nov 6^th) there would be another place to try some action.

Wish you all a good night and should you be interested in going to either places, give me a shout !

/Jinxen

 

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