So the
holidays are here and everyone is in the spirit of Christmas, or so one would
think.
I’m in
Malta, and adapting the holiday spirit is pretty much impossible when there is
15-20 degrees outside during the days, and the days when the weather is bad
there is 13-15 degrees and rain.
So no
matter how many Christmas lights they place around the island there will still
not be the correct setting for a true Christmas. And since I’ll be working on
the 24th (the day we celebrate in Sweden) and the 25th
(when they celebrate in Malta) it does not matter in the same way.
This is now
the 2nd year in a row that I will be in Malta during Christmas and
New Years and now that my brother has 2 sons I really feel that I want to be a
part of next years Christmas, so unless I am in the States during that time I
will make sure to be home in Sweden to take part and celebrate with the family,
or at least be there to give the kinds some gifts, it is after all a time for
the children.
For it to
be a “real” Christmas I feel that I need the snow, and even though I would be
pissed as hell at this point over all the snow if I were in Sweden I still feel
like I miss the feel and sight of some white landscape with some lights during
the evenings darkness.
At least I had
a quick skype call with the family so I could wish them all a Merry Christmas
and a Happy New Year, and always nice to see the nephews for a bit, and Viggo
told me the 25th is his birthday and asked when I was coming home,
which of course struck an emotional cold in this otherwise so cold body, and we’ll
see how the future looks and if there is any flights suitable to book and go
back for a bit.
I will
spend my time at the office during the nights the coming 2 weeks, which in a
way is not something I feel is bad either, since I do not have a staking deal
set up (even though I got an interesting offer in the week) I will just be
playing smaller 45man sit n goes when I’m off from work, but I still want to
get back to the MTT grind, and if I’ll get the deal set up I’ll probably pick
up some small pieces here and there and set up a real grinding station so to
keep the max focus running all session long.
I guess a
lot of people is looking to set goals and resolutions for the year 2013, but I
have never really been a person that does that.
I have always had 1 set resolution and that is that I should have a happier, more fun year than the last, and I have to admit to myself that this has not been the case the last 2 years, of course this is all my own fault, and something I need to correct for the coming year.
There might
be a few other goals that I am also thinking about setting up, and I will post
them as soon as I have decided what they are, the only problem is that I am not
a person that feel “bad” if I am not fulfilling any of the goals, I am not the
person that feel like “I WILL DO THIS”, and have never been, I have always
taken things the way they are and that’s it, but I guess that is due to the
fact that I’ve not taken myself that serious overall.
Too many
people take themselves way to seriously and feel they have to do certain things
because it is expected of them and so on, I mean who the fuck would tell you
what to do?
Think about
yourself and your family first, and if you do not have time for anything else
then do not even bother what anyone else think, and never ever feel the
pressure to “have to” do something.
I will try
and finish this shift off and the night has been long and boring as hell, glad
I had Adam Carolla on the mp3 to keep me through the night, and I also railed -G-
for a bit on his grind through skype, which is always fun.
We’ll see
how the future looks and even though I have nothing to write about I will try
and update at least once in a while, 1 month without a post is WAY to shitty,
but I doubt there is anyone reading here anymore, I guess the few of you that
read my blog will be reading the Swedish one.
If I come up
with any resolutions for 2013 I will post them for you, so we all can break
them together for moral support.
Take care
and happy holidays people !
/Jinxen