Almost 1 month between posts...

I mentioned in the last post that I were to post more frequently, yeah that did not go so good...

The main reason for this is that there is absolutely nothing going on at the moment, nothing is happening at work, there seem to be no chance at all to advance within the company and I am seriously questioning decisions that are made.

Sadly enough is that as soon as you try and share your opinion, stuff is blown out of proportion and instead of giving it a second or two, instead it goes back to the ”this is the way it hs been done and we will keep doing it for this reason and this reason alone”, which to be honest is frustrating as hell.

I will however try and not rock the boat as this is the way they want things to be done, and I will stick to doing what I am paid to do, and keep my eyes open for any glimmer of light.

I am still looking for jobs back in Sweden as well, however there seem to be harder to find anything there than down here in Malta, I did get a reply on one of the positions that I applied for, however they decided to go with another applicant, which was not that suprising since it was a position I doubt I were qualified for, but it was with Sandvik and in the Stockholm area, and would not have been that bad.

I also had a quick little phone interview with another gaming company here in Malta, however I turned that down since it were a position to reactivate old inactive accounts, which I am not a big fan of doing.

Sure, I would understand it to be some part of a position, but it would not be something for me to do full time, mostly because I have been on the other side of those calls way to often and I know that they basically do not generate anything, unless you have something really good to offer, which companies rarley have with those types of calls.

As things are becoming more and more slow down here I’ve been thinking of perhaps looking into taking some distance courses the coming year, if I qualify for any of the interesting ones of course, since the main education I would like to study would be a 1-2 year course in Gothenburgh and it would cost me 6500 Euro, and is out of the question haha.

I have some decisions to make, the contract on the flat I am currently renting is up at the end of this month, however we have a verbal agreement to extend it until the end of June, and when that time is up, I have some bigger decisions to make.

If I am still at the current company, I really need to see some chance for me to advance within the company, or I may as well leave, since my current position is not giving me any challenge at all and I feel like I need a bit of a challenge as well as of course wanting to increase my salary, I mean who wouldn’t.

The working out part has been going ok I guess, I’ve been going 2-3 times a week for 1 month now and I feel like I’ve become fatter and heavier than I were before and not really feeling motivated.

Everyone around me say ”ooh you will lose so much wheight in the beginning and you will get motivated”, yeah fuck off.

I have been thinking about what I eat and tried to eat a bit more healthy this month, but at the moment I struggle to feel the motivation, and now the months membership i up and I’m not sure if I want to pay another 75 euro for another month or not.

I told myself this month were to decide if I was going to buy a membership for 3 months, at the cost of 165 euro, instead of 75 per month to save some money, but before I decide what to do I guess I need to have a bit of a brainstorm to see if I feel it to be worth it or not, since I’ve seen no progress.

The highlight of the gym days are when I get to spend 10-20 minutes in the jacuzzi afterwards and just relax haha, but apart from that time I feel like I am getting weaker when trying to use the wheights as well... yeah I know I am not really a ball of excitement over here hahaha.  

Things on my mind the last month...

I love not beeing in this spot for a year...

I miss going fishing with my brother. 

 I miss the good times with friends, alcohol or not. (I'm basically sober these days)

Malta has some good days even when it rains. 

I miss having money, hate being broke all the time. 

Oh well, I am not going to promise anything in this post, since I suck at sticking to it haha, anyway I hope everything is well with all of you out there, family, friends as well as the random stranger that reads this.

Summer is coming soon and I guess most of us will be in a better mood when the sun comes out.

Have a good day.
Jonas