I mentioned in the last post that I were to post more frequently, yeah that
did not go so good...
The main reason for this is that there is absolutely nothing going on at
the moment, nothing is happening at work, there seem to be no chance at all to
advance within the company and I am seriously questioning decisions that are
made.
Sadly enough is that as soon as you try and share your opinion, stuff is
blown out of proportion and instead of giving it a second or two, instead it
goes back to the ”this is the way it hs been done and we will keep doing it for
this reason and this reason alone”, which to be honest is frustrating as hell.
I will however try and not rock the boat as this is the way they want
things to be done, and I will stick to doing what I am paid to do, and keep my
eyes open for any glimmer of light.
I am still looking for jobs back in Sweden as well, however there seem to
be harder to find anything there than down here in Malta, I did get a reply on
one of the positions that I applied for, however they decided to go with
another applicant, which was not that suprising since it was a position I doubt
I were qualified for, but it was with Sandvik and in the Stockholm area, and
would not have been that bad.
I also had a quick little phone interview with another gaming company here
in Malta, however I turned that down since it were a position to reactivate old
inactive accounts, which I am not a big fan of doing.
Sure, I would understand it to be some part of a position, but it would not
be something for me to do full time, mostly because I have been on the other
side of those calls way to often and I know that they basically do not generate
anything, unless you have something really good to offer, which companies
rarley have with those types of calls.
As things are becoming more and more slow down here I’ve been thinking of
perhaps looking into taking some distance courses the coming year, if I qualify
for any of the interesting ones of course, since the main education I would
like to study would be a 1-2 year course in Gothenburgh and it would cost me
6500 Euro, and is out of the question haha.
I have some decisions to make, the contract on the flat I am currently
renting is up at the end of this month, however we have a verbal agreement to
extend it until the end of June, and when that time is up, I have some bigger
decisions to make.
If I am still at the current company, I really need to see some chance for
me to advance within the company, or I may as well leave, since my current
position is not giving me any challenge at all and I feel like I need a bit of
a challenge as well as of course wanting to increase my salary, I mean who
wouldn’t.
The working out part has been going ok I guess, I’ve been going 2-3 times a
week for 1 month now and I feel like I’ve become fatter and heavier than I were
before and not really feeling motivated.
Everyone around me say ”ooh you will lose so much wheight in the beginning
and you will get motivated”, yeah fuck off.
I have been thinking about what I eat and tried to eat a bit more healthy
this month, but at the moment I struggle to feel the motivation, and now the
months membership i up and I’m not sure if I want to pay another 75 euro for
another month or not.
I told myself this month were to decide if I was going to buy a membership
for 3 months, at the cost of 165 euro, instead of 75 per month to save some
money, but before I decide what to do I guess I need to have a bit of a
brainstorm to see if I feel it to be worth it or not, since I’ve seen no
progress.
The highlight of the gym days are when I get to spend 10-20 minutes in the
jacuzzi afterwards and just relax haha, but apart from that time I feel like I
am getting weaker when trying to use the wheights as well... yeah I know I am
not really a ball of excitement over here hahaha.
Things on my mind the last month...
I love not beeing in this spot for a year...
I miss going fishing with my brother.
I miss the good times with friends, alcohol or not. (I'm basically sober these days)
Malta has some good days even when it rains.
I miss having money, hate being broke all the time.
Oh well, I am not going to promise anything in this post, since I suck at
sticking to it haha, anyway I hope everything is well with all of you out
there, family, friends as well as the random stranger that reads this.
Summer is coming soon and I guess most of us will be in a better mood when
the sun comes out.
Have a good day.
Jonas
Jonas