Feel it up the spine

I really have to admit that I have troubles accepting variance in poker, not that I do not understand that it´s somehting that is a natural part of the game or such, but it´s the fact that the bad runs for some reason always seem to come in groups.

And not losing vs a 3out shove here or there but instead you get a session where you lose vs every 3out there is, and after that there is yet another and another and another, and it´s at this point where I start feeling that creepy feeling that you can define as tilt, and even though I might throw a few thing or punch the wall, the monitor or what ever is close I do not start jamming 93 off or spewing like a mf:er.

So in that sence of speak it´s not tilt, but it still effects me in a bad way, since I get more inclined to either not play at all or play too much, both which is a bad thing.

But I´m glad to say that I at least do not let it effect my game and my choices at the table :)

And ofc it effects me even more since I play way above my bankroll, which is something I need to remedy by going down in stakes or finding a backer to stake me, but I feel it´s not easy to find someone to back me, but I´ll try and send a few applications out and see.

Any of you sng grinders out there know of a stable that is looking for another 9max sng horse, just let me know.

Until next time, take care and good luck.

/Jinxen